It's been a while but I managed to once again pull through. I found a stable home and am surrounded by people that love and only want the best for me! It's a weird feeling DAMN!

Once again, it doesn't matter whats thrown at me. I'm coming back to life and nothing except a bullet will stop me!

I can't believe the crap I was listening to today! I don't know what was worse, the crazy opportunists feeding the B.S., or the idiots who believe it! The entire thing was PARASTUPID!

Well, it seems like I am living in a world were things don't get better. Since the accident, my doctor has adjusting my back. I guess things sometimes get worse before the begin to get better...

Times are REALLY tough lately, and just when I was about to make it through this mess...another wrench was thrown in to seriously jam me up. So I tried to make a "happy" mix.

Well, this is a point in my life were EVERY little choice I make is very crucial. Its up to me if I sink or swim, live or die.

You are either in or out, it's up to you!

My friend and I were driving home, and an IDIOT on a cell slammed into the back of her car and totaled it!

This is the first mix I've done in a while...

Can you thing of anything in your life that could benefit from an adjustment? I'm sure you can...

I was just getting impatient and felt like I was being "strung along"...

Need I say more!

Every so often, usually when I'm feeling alone and this knot of frustration, anger, and an overwhelming sadness builds in my chest and throat...I am reminded of an "issue", I secretly battled and eventually kicked by myself. Not an urge, but kind of a reminder of my ability to"not lose it" and cope with trauma and abuse. This is something I never had anyone to talk to about, and still don't. It is important for people to have a person they trust to talk to about things. It can make such a difference in how they get through the rest of their life! What I really, really want to do is find a way I can help people that are going through one of the HARDEST things to kick! Somehow, the STUPIDEST choice I EVER made, taught me things about myself that I'm lucky to know. In my case, a lesson in which less than 20% actually live to tell about it...

All I can say is that I was feeling something. A little bored, definately anxious, and ready for things to move forward. I've done all I can do at this point...

As I get a clearer picture of what I need/want to do with myself (realistically) so I don't just "scrape by", and as I handle each step, things start falling into place. My confidence grows, and you feel that you actually have a chance to be in full control of your life...I realize people you thought cared don't always want to see you grow. You start believing that you are worthless,outta your mind, a stress to others, and come off to others as a "beat dog". Then finally something "clicks" and you get that "revelation"! I have faults, but am certainly not ALWAYS the problem and sure I'm a little crazy,and wierd. I'm ALWAYS the first to admit though, erfect... can you? Oh yeah, of course not, you're perfect...